A Step Toward Decision

I don’t know about y’all, but I could use a telephone call from God every once in a while. Just a simple, “Hello Sarah, this is what I want you to do next in life…” Is that really too much to ask for? I don’t think so. I mean after all, if my desire is to do God’s will above my own then shouldn’t I just wait for Him to tell me what that is?
I fall into that trap a lot in my life. I get so caught up on waiting to discover God’s will in my life that I just sit and wait and wait and wait and wait (you get the picture) and I never DO anything about it. I am so scared to make a decision that is not God’s will that I never make a decision! And recently I have been discovering (as in right now as I write this blog) that God does not want me to live in fear of my own choices. He placed desires in my heart for a reason, and if they are not His will then they will fade like all things of this world do. But if they ARE His will then those desires are meant to remain and grow into action. The problem I run into is that sometimes God can be pounding at the door of my heart and I am waiting for Him to come up to me in person. I want someone to walk up to me and say, “Well hello, I don’t know why but for some reason I felt really prompted to tell you x, y, or z…” Because I’m scared. What if I’m wrong? What if I want something so bad that I mistake my will for His? How do I KNOW this is what I am supposed to do?
Luckily, there are people way smarter and holier and I am in this world! Like the pope. A few days ago I had just had a particularly stressful prayer about where God was calling me in life; I knew that He would open and close doors to lead me to His will but I was too scared to even take a step for Him to react to in the first place! I little while later I logged into Facebook and saw that the USCCB had posted Pope Francis’ Tweet of the day:
"Dear young people, do not be afraid of making decisive choices in life. Have faith; the Lord will not abandon you!" - Pope Francis on Twitter 10/14/13

Okay. So maybe God wants me to take a step. Maybe He wants me to stop being so afraid of where that step will take me and just make it. Maybe if I continue to bring my life to Christ every day in prayer and the Eucharist He will be such a part of my life that I can’t possible go astray. Maybe He is looking out for me and bringing people, desires, and Pope tweets (no, really!) into my life so that I won’t be so afraid. Maybe through all of this God is telling me that I am not alone in my decision making and I should not be afraid to not only a step, but a leap of faith and maybe, just maybe, He won’t let me fall.